The Only Thing I Know

In John chapter 9, we read about a blind man that was healed by Jesus. He was crying out for a healing and Jesus placed  clay on his eyes and had him go wash off in the pool of Siloam. When those that knew of the blind man and how many years he endured this affliction saw that he had been healed, they began questioning him.

How were you healed?
Why did He do this on the Sabbath?
What do you call the man that healed you?

They even asked the blind man's parents questions.

Is this your son?
Was he blind from birth?
How can he see now?

Then the went back to interrogating the blind man?

And this is where the scriptures lit a fire in this seeking-change spirit of mine.

John 9:24, the Pharisees told the blind man that he should be giving God the praise because the man that 'supposedly' healed him was merely a sinner.

And the blind man said:

"He answered and said, Whether he be a sinner or no, I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see." (KJV)

He replied, “I know nothing about that one way or the other. But I know one thing for sure: I was blind . . . I now see.” (The Message)

The man answered, “I don’t know if he is a sinner. But I do know this: I was blind, and now I can see.” (ESV)

I feel like the blind man in my own life.

I can picture him  saying- Look, i don't know much of anything. I don't have all the answers. I don't know why He healed me. I don't know why He picked me. I don't know why He loves me so much. I have no answers for you- the ONLY thing I know is I once was blind and now I  can see. That's it.

I'm there. I'm there.

I don't have all the answers. I don't have it altogether. I don't know why He finally heard my cry and helped me with my hurtful ways. i don't know why He loves me so much  when I've done nothing to deserve it. I don't know why He gave me mercy and grace when I clearly deserved nothing good. I don't know much of anything. I don't even know why He still lets me feel His presence or take in His Word. i'm just a broken, lost person trying to find my way to Him and a life of eternal happiness.........


the ONLY thing I do know is that he healed me and He saved me. 
the ONLY thing I do know is that I was blind-- and He let me see the error in my ways.
the ONLY thing i do know is that I was SO SO SO lost... and He found me in the terrible, dark pit I wasin.
the ONLY thing I know is that I feel Him and He's changing me.

That's the only thing I know.
And I trust it.